Tuesday 12 February 2013

Why is it?

Why is it that on all of our monthly anniversaries Neel and I are always fighting? It's like self sabotage...we know it's coming and we get aggravated. Or is it only one of us that tips the scales?
With Valentines Day knocking on the door, I don't know what to do. We've been fighting and not talking for the past 3 days. Things are never gonna work if we can't sort these things out. Long distance relationships are hard enough as it is. All we have left is communication.
I want this to work so badly. I can't even articulate how much I want us to work out. I'm scared to say it aloud because I might jinx it.
More than anything I want to break this vicious cycle of "fighting on anniversaries". We have to celebrate our life...all the little things! We have to stop fighting!

Sunday 10 February 2013

Coke, Pepsi and Glycolysis

I've just spent the last hour or so making notes and trying to understand cellular respiration. I always confuse the respiration processes with photosynthetic processes! -.-

But not this time!

With the exams approaching I am determined to have a crystal clear understanding of my biology topics. Honestly, I'm itching to do the question papers but those won't help at all if I don't study and cover the material. All I've had to keep me going is a glass of pepsi followed by a pet bottle of Coke.
Something is wrong now. My eyelids are heavy, I have a mild headache and my eyes look kinda glazed over. Either it's an adverse side effect of the high calorie drinks, a somatised or physiological manifestation of my aversion to the Kreb's cycle or melancholia cause Neel hasn't texted me all day.
I'm not a clingy anything by nature but I think I'm becoming a little too emotionally dependent on our relationship when I should really be looking for some independent work time now that my exams are looming. *sigh
Anyway, Kreb's cycle, here I come!

Was für eine Liebe!

We had our EYP this past Friday. It was amazing. I mean the songs were fine....needless to say people enjoy dances more....but that didn't dilute the experience for moi atleast.
I got something I wasn't expecting at all. The British High Commissioner was the Guest of Honour and presented the students with their prizes and certificates during the Prize Distribution. I received a prize. After my dismal performance in the past January mock exams, I actually received a prize!
I was in shock!
It was for Consistent and Distinctive performance in the Science subjects at the A level. I don't think it's sunk in yet....

Mum and Dad are punch pleased, though mum would rather I focus on my applications for the university fair tomorrow.

The best part, however, is that it's given me renewed confidence and an urge to study and finish this course with a bang.

I'm looking at the university search with a lot more hope now and I hope to god everything works out for the best...for me. :P

Thursday 7 February 2013

First time's a charm

Jhilik told me over christmas about this superbly easy recipe for italian pasta with cheese sauce. So for a first attempt I thought this would be the perfect thing to start off a long life of fine cooking.
I don't know my way around a kitchen so naturally my maids had to help me find the proper utensils, cutlery, ingredients and even light the stove. It was soooo embarassing at first.
But then I started handling the ingredients and watching the noodles cook. I felt a little bit more in control. I knew exactly what I had to do, though I was second guessing and doubting every instruction the whole time.
But trust in jhilik! That girl knows what she's doing. Masala! Cheese! Italian seasoning! Red chilli flakes! Then I added a little more italian seasoning for good measure. I reckoned there wasn't enough from just the one addition.
I put it in the bowl and smelled it properly for the first time....and it smelled delightful! I tucked in after it cooled off a bit.
It was delicious! It was better than restaurant quality italian pasta!!! It was phenomenal.
I could easily stomach another bowl of it.
I guess you can get it right the first time. Mum had to make 100 batches of cheesecake before she finally got the ingredients right and made the perfect orange cheesecake with cake base the past christmas in Scotland.
It made her so happy! It was like her Everest!
Today, italian cheese pasta. Tomorrow, orange cheesecake with a cake base. Baby steps!

I'm so glad it was a good dish today! So very very glad!

Wednesday 6 February 2013

Bengali girls should know how to cook

It's a lot harder than it sounds.

Girls like me have never had the need to enter the kitchen. There's always someone else around to cook the food and definitely heaps better than we ever could have. If it's not the maids, it's your mum; if it's not your mum, it's your grand mum; if it's not your grand mum, it's your aunt; if there's no one else, it's your dad. If you're alone, there's always takeout!

I keep thinking about opening a cookbook, buying the ingredients and finally cooking myself (and maybe others) a meal. But I realised how unnatural it feels to look at the kitchen, let alone enter the kitchen. Plus when I'm in there I always have someone or the other breathing down my neck- one of the maids, never family- and that's just when I go in to look for food, not even to cook.

I don't cook unless I need to. For example, when Diya fell ill I cooked her "sheddho kolaa" and I've made tea multiple times. I make good tea.

Yes, yes, I know what you're thinking. She's pathetic!

In this regard, I am. It's truly miserable. Even Drona's learning how to cook in his Hotel Management course! And he's a boy. It doesn't matter how good a surgeon I become...I will always be considered a "goono-heen meye" if I don't learn how to cook, clean, sew, darn, knit, crochet, etc. and be able to dance and sing half-decently.
My husband won't love me if I can't cook him cuisine at home. Men are so hard to please. Neel's gonna want posto- the ADDICT! It's his favourite dish.

Urgh! I'll try making Maggi-pasta tomorrow. I have all the ingredients at home anyway. Let's hope I actually enter the kitchen and do it. Believe me, that is the real challenge- forcing myself to do something I don't yet need to (or want to) do. But better learn now before it's too late....and I kill my family with food poisoning. 

Monday 4 February 2013

Morning time

My sleep pattern has normalized lately since I fell ill almost two weeks ago. Haven't heard a word from Drona or Diya. The treacherous D's!
I woke up early today to finish a physics homework I was supposed to have finished over the weekend, which I spent studying and understanding integration. The homework is about "How to detect magnetic fields" using a search coil, a hall probe and a current balance. Now while the two former devices are understandable and simplistic, the latter is complex and intricate.
I was looking up videos and websites on the net all morning trying to figure out how to explain the working principle of a current balance and found nada...nichts...nothing! Well nothing that made sense to me! And then I realize that there is a simplified model of the current balance in the book! Fricken Page 376! It's so annoying to put all that back breaking work into an assignment! And finally be thwarted/rescued by a simple diagram in ur textbook! Why didn't I look there before.
Should be testament to the fact that I've never truly studied the text book before. Better start now! I have less than an hour before class starts!
Wish me luck!