The rat race

It's been a fairly long time since I've blogged. I've been trying to prepare for the finals- the A2 exams. That's right...they're finally here!! And I really really wanna finish with a bang! However, I haven't finished completely studying any of the syllabi and I'm tired of studying...not to mention desperately lonely (I've been cooped up indoors for weeks now with nothing but my books), unbelievably tired and mildly depressed.

Dads signed me up for every indian medical entrance examination possible. Mums egging me on to apply in usa. Dronas distant as usual. Neel and I haven't been able to talk in ages. And my other friends are giving me space so I can study. Bottom line - I'm alone. More so now because I'm trying to tackle physics. I can't handle the pressure anymore. I don't want to study anymore. And I'm not prepped for anything. The mock exams start next week and I'm supposed to be attending a birthday party day after.
FML.
I've received admission into 3 universities but I'm yet to apply to the ones I want. And to top it off, I have to give 3 exams during my A levels and dads constant hankering and mood swings don't help.
Mums in london trying for love again. *sigh. Its all I want for her but even I'm getting tired of seeing her disappointed by rubbish men who aren't worth the time of day.
My sleeps bad......I'm not eating well (no wonder I'm tired)...sometimes I wish I didn't have to deal with the pressure. All I really wanna do right now is curl up in bed with "pride and prejudice".