Bleh SAT prep

It's Monday. I have my SATSubject tests on Saturday...this coming Saturday. 3 frigging tests and I am nowehere near prepared. I've been SAT bio all day and I've about almost finished one book without remembering all the little details. I'm a goner. A goner for sure. I still have chem and math left. I've been registered for math 2....I couldn't even ask if I could switch and give math 1 on test day because the american centre offices are closed today! Martin Luther King's birthday.

Female abuse in india

I just finished writing an essay about the aforesaid title. The research depressed me. My god, men in india have no morals at all! I called neel and he didn't help either because he cannot carry a conversation unless he's high and he doesn't like talking about rape because it's not real for him.

I called mohona after and god knows that woman has a brain so we got into it and I loved being able to talk to someone about it.
Then mum called and things got worse. Pressure, pressure!

Then I bathed in hot-cold water, bought food and now tv. This is sooooothing.

Getting to the bottom of my work

Well, the pile seems endless...

And I'm not even nearly done. I've got A2 level syllabus to catch up on...SAT 2 prep to complete....the US essays to write....and then there's more after that. I could really do with a bit of help...but no such luck it seems. And I'm as tired as a donkey that's been travelling uphill with 2 sacks of manure on its back for days!

Neel and I are still not entirely patched up but I think now is not the best time for that reconciliation. I need to work.

I wish though I could get some rest. I could sleep for hours and hours at this point and still not feel any more rested. How I envy those on vacation on the beach somewhere warm!!! Basking in the radiance of that warm, sultry sun....seeping in that extra melanin stimulating radiation....falling oh-so-blissfully asleep baked warm and tender....oh those gorgeous REM cycles....how I do miss them! Though that's possibly the least of my problems at this point....200 people have died in India from the cold. In the continental areas and at higher altitudes, temperatures have been dropping to between 3 and 0 degree Celcius.
For all you bravehearts out there, this winter is not the season to be prancing about outside without 3 good layers of thermal lining! Your body heat can only do so much good without the appropriate insulating layers. Happy travelling!

The things we do for love

So, el knight in shining armour finally decided to call....while I was taking a long distance call from my mum....so I put them on conference.....and then we had a heart to heart when I finally lay down the law.
I need to think about me now....for a while atleast till my exams end. He needs to think about me as well. It's not okay to make me wait for him, and worry bout him and wonder where he is and why he suddenly isn't messaging or calling. I need space now, and time to focus.
He's a good guy, though. I got a good one. Not perfect....not nearly....but a good one.
P.S.: Dads back to being civil, mum's great and faraan's been calling incessantly to find out if I talked to Mohona....but I told him that she would tell me when she's free to talk. Men! Such thick skulls they have.

I need my hero

Neel has been apologizing all day. Then his net probably went off and he hasn't messaged me all afternoon, evening and night. I miss him. And I wish he would atleast call.
It makes me wonder: do people in love act this aloof? It's interfering with my ability to focus on my studies. But I spent the evening scanning documents I'll need for college applications.
I wish he'd call though. It'd make me feel heaps better and god knows I'm too proud to pick up the phone. Call already!

A day in the life

So, I've been fighting with my dad and my boyfriend a lot recently...for different things....and they've been saying a lot of hurtful things. So it's safe to say I'm not in the best state of mind.
I've been struggling to finish my college applications and I have a sneaking feeling I won't be able to submit them in time.
Dad's against the idea of my going to america to study anything...says he won't give up shit for me to go on a fun holiday there....because, to him, that's what my undergraduate course would be. Suffice it to say, dad would rather gag to death, than see me ever enjoy myself. Ah, such blissful family relationships!

Neel, on the other hand, is mostly fine except when he sometimes just does things to annoy me. He makes me come online on Skype yesterday, then makes me wait 20 minutes and then comes online from his phone and goes offline repeatedly (though, admittedly, not his fault....his net is shit). But then he finally calls me to tell me he'll call me again in 45 mins. And that just ripped my cord. I hung up and didn't pick up his next 10 calls.
Faraan and I chatted and that cheered me up....but this looks dangerously like an avenue which will lead to my breaking up with Neel. And that I do not want.